Friday, September 20, 2019

For every moment worth worrying,

What would I do, if I have nothing to worry about?

Sit by a cafe, sipping down a warm and thick hot chocolate. Savouring a tangy sourdough toast with creamy scrambled eggs, sautéed mushrooms with fresh truffle shavings, wilted spinach and a generous sprinkle of toasted pine nuts. Breathing in fresh air, looking mindlessly at trees, flowers, clouds and simply anything that moves before my eyes. And when I feel like it, a well risen, moist pistachio soufflé with freshly churned vanilla bean studded ice-cream. Accompanied with lovely classical tunes, the familiar tunes that I can hum to.

Or perhaps, 

Lazing by the window, staring at the night sky, counting the stars that my human eyes can see. With no agenda on the next day, or the day after, or the rest of my life. Dozing off to milky ways and shooting stars. A light scent of lavender, hugging my knees, wondering which star belongs to me. Not caring if I have to please anyone, just my very own tired soul. 

Maybe,

Stepping into an empty concert hall, picking any seat I like. A soloist, playing just for me. My favourite songs, weaved into a simple symphony. Spending the evening just swinging along. No words needed. No comments. No interruptions.

Moments turn into memories, memories into history, history into lessons, lessons into stories. Those untold stories. 




Monday, August 12, 2019

Ready;

The long weekend was memorable - meeting PY 4 days in a row brought back many London/Iceland feels. Except that conversations included marriage and housing plans, which was definitely exciting and am looking forward to.

Am I ready?

I am ready but not prepared. Does that make sense? I am emotionally able (and happy) to accept that I am going to spend the rest of my life with this amazing guy. But knowledge-wise, I don't think I am well equipped. Maybe that's when pre-marriage counselling comes in to help.

Was struggling with this in my head, trying to figure out what is it that I am feeling.

And if the wedding is on 8th August 2020, we have exactly 1 year to prep, including housing plans.

2020 is going to be a year of changes, something I would need to learn to face with confidence and embrace.

Friday, August 9, 2019

Corner House;



A surprise, thank you really. 

Not sure what you see in me, but I thank God for you :)