Week 2,

Week 2 is starting already! So fast.

I have a very boring weekend, so there's really no point updating a boring life to a boring blog to make it even more boring.

But anyway,

School's been not too bad, and I'm quite alright with it so far. Though the timetable keeps changing, but I guess that is normal. Lab sessions are ok, but I hate the fact that i have to wear goggles. ): Goggles makes my face have the goggles mark cause my cheeks are way too fat. Oh well..

Anyway, was just thinking (cause the youths were watching the Martin Luther show this afternoon)..

That when we are born, we can't really choose which family we are born to and how we will be born like. Some people, born in a poor family and is born with diseases or symptoms. They can't be cured, and have to suffer financially and physically. Well, since they are a baby, you can't really determine that they sinned, or are sinners so they really don't deserve that kind of life. Others, born with a silver spoon, healthy and well. Do you consider them as saints so they get such comfortable life? They are still a newborn baby afterall. I'm not going to talk about how they can change their lives when they grow up cause that is another case. But, when we were just newborn babies, did we get to choose which family to be born into?

Seems like God is rather unfair in this case ain't He. Well, this sounds cliche or cheesy or whatever, but I guess God has a plan for us in whatever family we are born into. Consider the diseased, or born without limbs (http://www.lifewithoutlimbs.org/about-nick), God still gave them a plan, or even a bigger plan than those that are much more fortunate. Look at me, I have everything I want, but I consider myself more pathetic than those that are suffering but choose to be strong. What is strong when I'm comfortable? 

Didn't plan to talk about Christianity but I guess if I want to talk about life before choice, I would have to touch on Christianity after all. It was God who created man anyway. Yes, we were created, believe it or not. I seriously cannot stand the fact that I am evolved(some so pokemon-ish) from an ape, or a single organism which can't even choose.

Oh well, I didn't derive this from the whole Martin Luther or what he did. I simply saw the crippled girl whom her mother carried her around and thought about how I am now, or how I would be if I'm born like this.

OH SHUCKS!

Oh yes, I slept throughout the afternoon and evening after I finish my revisions. x.x Wasted half a day, but i feel so refreshed now! :D

I never knew I'll get so emotional over my hamster. I thought I would be as nonchalant as i was dissecting our white mouse in lab. I thought I would be able to touch it and hold it. But I couldn't. This hamster is more than just an animal to me. It's a friend that can't talk but is able to make me feel warm and snugly when I see her running around happily.

Now that she's gone, the wheel's gotten quieter ):

I'm left with one more hamster, but he doesn't move around much. He likes to be very neat and clean and will make a place just for him to sleep. I don't know whats wrong with him but he used to run around often. I guess I need to wake him up more often cause he's always sleeping. It's still nice to see him warm and moving.

Tomorrow is Friday already. Time flies when I'm in school and I like how fast the weeks past.

R,I,P,

Dearest Chip,

By now you should be in hamster heaven enjoying all your favorite nuts. I'm sorry i had to only feed you with carrots as your last meal, I didn't know it'll be your last and I never hope it'll be.

Everyday I come home from school I'll check your cage, knock it so that you'll wake up and climb on the cage. A few times I would see you sleeping soundly and not moving when i tap at your bathing box. That few times really scare me but I would always be relieved when you start jerking like you just woken up from a nice dream.

But today, when i tapped you, you wouldn't move, wouldn't turn. You just lay there, cold and hard. I was really shocked. I didn't want to believe that you're gone, but you are.

I didn't know you'll leave me and Dale so soon. Won't you even miss your childhood friend?

When I browse through your pictures in my phone, I knew no other hamsters can replace you. You're that clever, fast and cute Chip I'll ever have. That only Chip I'll ever have.

I wish that you would have a great time at hamster heaven. I know I'll never see you again, the hamster with a bite mark at her right ear, the hamster that never fails to impress me with how fast you can run on the wheel, the hamster that will hide all the nuts she can find in her cheeks and still able to drink water, the hamster that always makes my day feel better.

I'll miss you, and I'm sure all those that love you will miss you too.

Love,
The owner that always feeds you nuts one by one.

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My hamster just died a moment ago, actually I believe that she died a few hours ago, because her body was already stiff when I touched her. I buried her already. I know she'll never be able to read this letter I typed for her, cause firstly, she can't read and secondly, she doesn't know I have a blog.

Yesterday, she was still running around happily when i cleaned her cage. She was still running around her cage and climbing up and down. I was more worried for the other hamster cause he didn't run as much as last time and don't like to move around. I didn't know a piece of baby carrot would be her last meal. I knew she hated carrots. But she finished it anyway.

She probably died from a dislocated hind leg. When I flipped her around, her left hind leg was dislocated and there was traces of blood on her body. I wished she died in peace, but sadly, she didn't.

I wish I knew she dislocated her leg so that I can bring her to a vet to treat it. But it was too late when I'm home. She's already gone.

I wish she understand what is sorry. I wish I can still express my apology.

I'll treasure Dale more now. I don't want to regret not taking good care of him.

I really miss you Chip.

2nd day of school

Hello,

Ok, feeling rather accomplished today cause i managed to do quite a few things! :D

Cleaned my brushes, wiped my whiteboard, clean my hamster cage. :D not bad la hor:D

That's what i can do when Tuesday lessons end so early. This sem is indeed less stressful cause the timetable is more spread out:D

School's fine. How else can it be? haha. Been going to school for a year plus already, more or less used to lectures and all. I just don't want to doze off during lectures or tutorials can already:D and must make sure got enough rest!! (:

Alright, think i should pack my bag for tmr so that i can sleep earlier later:D nights(:

TT,

Hello,

Today is the last day of my 6 weeks of holidays. I shouldn't be feeling anything because I've been through this twice already. Today is the third. It's not so bad, when i was looking at my calender. The days would be passing by pretty quickly, which is a good thing I guess. I've gotten my bag ready for school and all my notes are ready too. Seems like this sem would be another war. An easier war, I hope.

Craving for Astons and Marche. ): FAT.

School's starting,

Idk to be happy or sad that school is starting. Firstly, I'm glad that I don't have to work for my mum because it's really boring when there's nothing to do and it's freaking cold there. But I get to eat good food:D Secondly, school would be tying me down pretty badly, so I won't have time for many things ): Thirdly, I wish I was a little more special and don't have to attend school and still be able to get GPA 4. lol, which will never happen.

Oh well, so I just have to face the reality and attend school. I pretty much dread waking up early the most. And the traffic jams. ): I wish school is just next door.

No point complaining, just have to buck up.

Good thing is that school is 5 days and not 7 days. :D

I always wish that I would wake up with a taller body, slimmer face and bigger eyes. x.x Lol. Nothing wrong with dreaming right? :D

Dinner @ Equinox complex

It's really a pleasure to have dinner with my family at Equinox complex. A little intro on this place:

Singapore's “highest” culinary landmark with world-class cuisine and spectacular views of Singapore, the award-winning Equinox Restaurant enchants with the most scrumptious authentic International offerings.

Seated in the elegant amphitheatre-style restaurant, be awed by three-storey high teak and rice paper lanterns, Ming-inspired wooden trellises and a luminous wall of mother of pearl. 

 I would really say, this is somewhat my first time doing fine dining.

This is how the restaurant look like:

One bad point about the restaurant is that the lighting at night is really terrible. I had to strain my eyes the whole time because the lighting was way too warm. I think its because we're sitting by the windows, so they expected more "natural" light. That aside, the food was great.

First off, we were greeted with some bread and baguette which taste really good with the butter, olive oil and sour cream placed in front of us for us to choose. Then, they surprised us with some canapé which included salmon skin with raw salmon and salmon roe on top, some cheesy-baby-food-like "soup" and smoked eel. All taste really good but my personal favourite got to be the salmon(cause I love salmon, duh).

After around 15mins or so, the appetizers came and we ordered some seabass, Foie Gras de Canard and some mussels in cheese(i think) with salmon roe.

As you can see, the lighting really is darn bad. x.x But the food is great! :D

After another 15mins or so, the main course is served. Didn't take any pictures of the main course, cause the lighting was really cmi + they look too delicious:X haha. But anyway, we ordered Suckling Pig ‘55C’ Celeriac and Mustard, Smoked Full-blooded Black Angus Tenderloin “Pan-fried Bone Marrow” and Shimeji Mushrooms, Spiced Pigeon, Foie Gras and Peanuts, and some smoked pork(I cant find the name online! x.x). I tried all of them, and I prefer the black angus (which is my main course:D). The pigeon tasted really weird, but I guess it's because we don't know how to appreciate it ):

After which, the desserts were served. We ordered Salted Caramel with “Walnut Snow” and Elderflower and caramelized apple with lemon sorbet. The lemon sorbet is really good. Haha.

Just when we thought that all was served, they surprised us with another dish. Some assorted sweets which taste really great and made the meal seems whole:D

Apologies for lousy pictures. x.x

So, a few night shots:D

Good night! (:

Crazy,

Hello,

Hmm, realised that I haven't been buying much things online lately (which is darn great) and I can start saving up! :D

There was this one period of time which I seriously cannot stop buying things. And i suddenly got a lot of new clothes. LOL. But now, it kinda hurt to see my bank acc money to decrease, so I'm trying to control already.

Is this a kind of disorder? LOL. Well, if it is, I'm getting out of the disorder(shopping disorder? :X).

But I guess, one person can have many disorder in their lives.

But, I think a disorder can be anything. Even being obsessed with cleanliness can be a disorder. I guess some people just don't like to be too tidy and named it a disorder. ):

Everyone says "in moderation" is good. But what is moderation? A clean table with a pencil not at it's place? Haha, that would be weird.

Ok, this is getting no where, just letting my thoughts flow and not caring what I'm typing. My dad says, the future technology will involve us thinking and the computer or what-so-ever will be able to "know" what we're thinking and type it out or something. That's scary isn't it? I won't have time to organize what I'm thinking. x.x

You know,

Sometimes, I really wonder, why don't God just give me whatever i want?

Been facing with quite a number of down moments these few days. A couple of hiccups and stuff. I was praying rather hard for comfort but in the end I get more disappointments. As much as I want things to go my way, they don't.

Well, I guess I am only human, and am not prepared for the many responsibilities. Maybe it is better this way. There is nothing wrong with what is happening, but I just can't cope with my own emotions.

I believe that He has His better plans for me.

And I still thank Him for whatever I have now. (:

Opps!

My bad, for the lack of updates ):

Been really devastated about my driving results ):

But i am pretty quite sure that I'll pass the 2nd time i take it. :D be optimistic Jiajia!

It's really funny how I can tell other people to cheer up and there's always a second chance, but now that i feel the pain and hurt, it's really hard to face the wheel again. ): It's even harder to face my instructor. I'm quite sure I'll get a real bad scolding from him for all the silly mistakes i made. Hais!

Stay optimistic please. Being sad won't earn me a pass anyway.

Just received my pay, pretty good. :D enough to buy me my shoes and pay back my watch. LOL.

That's something to be happy about (: but after paying for all these, I'm broke again. Waiting to get my pay from my mum. :D

Actually, I can't wait for November to end. Cause it's like stuck in between. It's like, there, but not there that kind of feeling. December is the ultimate holiday month that I like because it is christmas!! And christmas is nice because there are bright and pretty lights and people exchange gifts:D So November, hurry come and go please! :D

Oh come on!

Please please please please,

Don't let me knock down some old man tomorrow.

But most importantly,

LET ME PASS MY FREAKING DRIVING TEST. 

Thank you very much.

ARRGH,

A quick post before I leave for my piano lesson.

A very sad thing happened to me yesterday ): I remembered my driving practical lesson day, and I thought it was Friday, but it's suppose to be thursday! ): So, I wasted one lesson, and my driving test is so so so near! Now i feel so scared. x.x What if i don't pass? (Retake la! x.x). But i don't want to retake! waste time and money ): HAIS.

Ok, gonna go for piano lesson already. Been so tired lately ):

9-6,

So I've been working at my Dad's company. Walking through his warehouse makes me feel as if I'm in some fighting movie where i have to dodge oncoming bullets which might hit me anytime from my enemies. x.x and i get to hide and shoot, hide and shoot. hahahhha. And I guess it's rather conducive for jumping around and doing stunts cause there are so many huge machines around!

Working 9-6 everyday is quite tiring. Lol. And I almost doze off when my mum was talking to me about work. Gosh. x.x

So driving test in another less than a week. scared! ):

Tmr is another 9-6 day. Hope i can pull through without dozing off! :D Short post, gotta go:D

Overflowing Joy,

Many of my 18 years old biggest test is over, and the results are out. Thank God, that everything turned out better than i thought they would be. I passed my BTT/FTT, passed my finals, passed my piano exam(which is a miracle!). And the upcoming one is my driving test which is coming in around 8 more days. If i pass it, I will really be .. speechless. I really don't deserve so much grace from Him.

I may not be the smartest out there, but I believe that God will bring me through everything. :D

My first day at my dad's office is alright, learnt a few stuff, did a few paperwork(such as tearing paper x.x). Haha. Not too bad:D very relax, but i somehow preferred the catering job because I get to experience and see more things. I get to go to events and know what is going on out there, and see how people behave and such. Different company behaves differently. Haha. Working for the catering company just allows me to remind myself not to behave like them next time when there are food around. :D

Oh well, there's gonna be another driving practice tmr. Hopefully I'll do well. I always rate myself after my driving lesson. The last one i rated myself 3/10. Cause i really sucked. I can't change lanes properly, did a few terrible mistakes while parking and am very forgetful. Probably cause i didn't get to attend lessons for 2 weeks. So hopefully this few lessons will buck me up. :D

I really love how life is now. (: Blessed with everything i need, or even more than i need. :D

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

-Psalm 23

Oh no,

Oh yes. Results are out. :D

And thank God i did better than expected:D I really don't deserve my results considering the fact that i was getting 30+++++% out of 60% for CA. x.x Seems like my finals was pretty well done:D

Alright, nuff said bout studies. I'm not gonna work for catering company already. My mum bought me over at $8/hr. LOL. was hoping i can work longer for her, but her working hours start at 9am and ends at 6pm. x.x

My mouth can't stop chewing on food. x.x

It's another new month, and a new sem is coming up! Gonna work extra hard again to get better results:D I want GPA 4 for the coming 3 sems. HAHA. erhm, im not joking k. :D

Ok, I'm really darn bored at home. i cleared my notes, packed and threw away my typed notes and kept those teacher gave. Packed my table and it's ready to store new notes for next sem. :D

See, I'm so ready to get a GPA 4. hahahhah:D