I need a little more luck,

Credits to: Carlieee1

Apologies for the lack of updates. I was away for a camp for the past few days. Nothing much to say about the camp, it's like another FOC-the mini version.

Maybe just a little rant.

Sometimes, I find it weird to answer questions when I don't even mean the answers. It's even weirder to hear people repeat the same answers when we know that it isn't how they feel. Of course the answers would vary between people to people, and not all the time they are as bad as they are. It's as though the question is being asked to force an answer that we want. It is just me that I only see the good points? Or is it others who only want to talk about the bad ones. I really don't know. But I just don't like how people ask questions sometimes.

Oh well.

Everyone is writing about their new year resolutions and what happened during 2010. 2010 wasn't an ultimately awesome year for me, but I would say it's not too bad. I had my fun times, and my down times. Poly life seem to make the end of a year not so much the end of the year, cause we're in the middle of semester 2. So now my months are kinda screwed up. I categorize my years in terms of my year in poly. For example, end of year 1 is one year. end of year 2 is another year. Not end of December is one year. So no point saying what happened in 2010. I am really kinda messed up.

But my life is kinda boring anyway. Nothing much happened. Probably the recent events, like getting baptised and getting my driving license. Didn't travel to far away lands, or went to any huge events.

How about new year resolution?

It's already half way pass sem 2, but I guess I'll still work hard for my another sem. Don't buy so much things online. Exercise more. Clear my wardrobe. Clean my room. No more junk food. Drink more water. Read more news. Be more organized. Meet datelines more efficiently.

Is that 10? I'm lazy to count.

365 days seems so long. But it's just 12 times of 30 days, 52 times of 7 days. 52 times of 7 days seems shorter. Maybe because the 7 days seem so fast to pass.

But really, looking forward to 2011. In terms of the financial and relation status globally, my own academic and financial progress, my family and friend's relationships and the upcoming challenges that I'll face in FYP and attachment. Of course, I would really want to go for a trip or 2 in year 2011. Probably to Japan, Taiwan, if possible, the United States.

But I seem so old. 19 is like nowhere. It's one year away from 20, but not there yet. How much would 1 year mean? I don't know how much I've changed from the starting of Jan till now. But I guess many one year(s) matter.

Oh gosh. I'm turning 20 soon. I'm no longer a -teen. I should be glad, ain't I?

1 more day to spend in 2010. Would I miss this year? I guess I would on the first day of 2011.

I should have known,

Credits to: MrsHarryPotter14

My Christmas Eve night was shared with a bunch of mosquitos (maybe one, but because I have multiple bites I would like to assume there are many). Not impressive, really.

Disappointed by the fact that my family ain't very "on" about Christmas. No trees, no lights, not even the slightest hint of ham in our dinner. Not to mention, no presents. Alright, not the family, just the older generation. My brother's and I are rather hyped up for Christmas. (: I know I really shouldn't complain on Christmas Eve, but I would really, really, really appreciate at least 1% of effort to putting this a memorable Christmas.

I would love to watch "Home alone" now. It's a good show. At least, it's way better than the shows on Channel 8 right now.

Glad that my afternoon was well spent(:

I know boxing day is on Sunday, but, I've already unwrapped my only present. Haha. Thanks to my most love one for the present. Really appreciate it (:

Gotten myself a pair of Ray-bans. Took me long enough to search for it. Everywhere in Singapore is sold out on their new wayfarer.

I'll take a look back at my previous Christmas Eve.

Ah,

Happy birthday to my hamster. (: Though your companion died, which I'm still rather affected about. But I'm glad you pulled through (: I should give you a little present later (:

Looks like my last Christmas was well spent. I hate that I have a bad memory. ):

I hope your Christmas is not as bad as mine (: Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas Eve,

Credits to: augenweide

Hello,

Firstly, Merry Christmas Eve to all(:

I haven't been updating due to techtalk. I'm glad to say I've more or less done with it (: It's been really tiring doing up the magazine. But it's a good experience.

Anyway..

First things first, I've passed my driving test! (: What's better, I've passed it with 2 points :D God provides more than enough:D Haha. But driving on road is really different. Been driving with my mum around for the past 2 days. Quite scary because I'm still very slow. I like it slow actually. Gives me more time to react. Blame it on my slow reaction.

Then, comes Christmas! Yea, it's christmas, but it's not a time for me to take a break. With 3 projects awaiting me to start, I'm rather tight on my schedule. It's really disheartening to see teachers flooding us with work during this festive season. ):

Alright, I'm really tired. Shall continue to blog some other time (:

Merry Christmas Eve!

All is calm, all is bright.

Credits to: meagan565

Christmas is nearing, and here I am, feeling tired and sick.

Over the weekends,
Friday:
I&E for the kids at Radiance kindergarden. It was a fulfilling experience, but also very tiring. The kids can scream and scream and scream like there's no tomorrow. I'm glad they had fun though. We managed to complete our task successfully which was quite surprising. Its amusing to see how the kids can warm up to us so quickly. I wish all of us didn't lose the innocent part of us. I find it hard to talk to people whenever it's the first day of school, because I don't know how they would think of me. I wish I never became like this. Well, when I was young, I was a quiet girl, so no difference. Haha.

Saturday:
Caroling practice in church and at Tricia's house was another toll on me. I haven't touched my flute in around 1year? and probably the last time i played it I could only blow notes that I didn't know what they were. I was exceptionally amazed by how fast I could figure out which fingering was for which note and didn't cause much hassle for Lorelle, who were trying to coach me for flute. The last time I played for church was a disaster because I couldn't remember which fingering I'm suppose to pressed. After that, I don't expect much out of myself. But this time was really different. Really very shocked, and happy. That aside, fingering is one thing, but having the breath to last through it was another. I didn't have the "气" as they call it. My notes were airy and sounded quite bad. I knew that myself, but well, at least the notes are right. So, I was blowing the whole day and that tire me out. Considering that I still can remember the fingering, I might join Yamaha for flute lessons to kickstart my interest in flute again. But not now.

Sunday:
The real thing. Caroling was a hell tiring. Past few years was just singing and I considered that as tiring. Didn't know that blowing flute for the whole day can be 3x more tiring. We went to various places such as People's park complex at Chinatown, 3 different household and back to church after that. People's park complex was kinda scary, because there was a crowd staring at us. I made a lot of mistakes, but who cares, they don't remember me. Haha. I tried my best, that's all it matters. The musicians got better as we move on for different stops, which is good. Practice makes perfect. Of course, we got more tired after each stops. And so, when we reached church, I think I looked like a zombie who was out of breath, purple and bruised. Ok, not the bruised part, but I was quite certain I didn't have any flush on my cheeks or colors on my lips, just like a blank canvas. Reached home, and feel asleep after I finished my usual routine of surfing the web and stuff.

Today:
I was quite brave to book driving lessons back to back in the morning because by the 2nd lesson, I was already tired and my brain sort of stop functioning properly. Glad that I was still able to finish up the circuits and the road. But after that, I got a pretty bad headache. It's not massive pain, but it's very persistent. It's still hurting right now. And I'm tired, again. Driving test is tomorrow and well, I would be lying if I say I'm not nervous. Frankly speaking, I'm pretty demoralized that I failed my first test. I hope tomorrow would be fine. I don't know how the rest of the day would go, but hopefully, it would be good.

So, as I was saying, christmas is nearing and I haven't prepared much for christmas. I don't have the energy to decorate my room, or the house like last year. Very disappointed when my mum refused to buy my brothers and I present, but am very touched when my dad says he'll find time to go buy present for us. I just hope that he'll keep his word. So what if we've grown up? Don't we deserve gifts anymore? That doesn't make sense.

Ok, I'm really feeling sick. Cold feet, headaches and blurry images doesn't help, I should get some rest.

Miraculously,

Credits to: felill

WOOOHOOO, exams are over:D

Ok la, today's paper. :D

Now, for the things to do done during the hols. Good thing I&E is ending tomorrow:D Techtalk is top on my list, and then trial camp and laser quest. x.x and please let me pass my driving test.

15 more days till end of Dec! And then it's new year and I'll look forward to Chinese new year:D

I hope 2011 would be smooth sailing (though I know it's not going to be). Anyway....

Tomorrow gotta wake up early for I&E. Hopefully I'll manage to get some pictures to show what I'll be doing tomorrow. It sounds exciting(:

Alright, short post. Really dk what to blog about after the exams. (Gosh, my life is that boring x.x)

Nights(:

Hey oh, let it snow oh,

Credits to: mandamick17

It's such a gloomy day today. The weather is really quite screwed up. Yesterday was SOOOOOO warm. And today is neither here nor there. ): When isit going to snow? ):

Anyway,

Mobio revision not going well. ): Keep getting distracted along the way by my lappy. Youtube, sgflea, shopping websites should totally be banned from my internet. Terrible.

But I WILL certainly finish my notes by tonight. I'm quite sure about that.

Don't have a good feeling nor a bad feeling about Molbio. Maybe it's because I'm hungry, again.

But I really want to do well for Molbio CT. So that Dr Lau and all the lecturers can see that I'm not that bad and maybe have a higher chance of granting HY and I our FYP first choice.

Gonna get ready to go for driving lessons. A time to let me relax my brain and crash all the cars on the street. Nah, just kidding. Lol. So GTA. hahahaha

Alright, gonna grab some food before I leave. And it looks like it's gonna rain. How awesome. Been wanting to practice in the rain. (:

BYE.

Do I look like, I won't care?

Credits to: ContagiousPixie

A big sigh to start off this post.

I can't believe I am such a dumbass. It's not a question I've never seen before. ): There goes 8 marks. Byeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Seriously felt like slapping myself when I saw that question. First slap:(to test if I'm dreaming) SURE A NOT?! I DID THIS QUESTION LIKE 2X!. Second slap: GOSH, I CANT GET THE SAME ANS(cause the concentration was different and I didnt know). Third slap: WALIAOOOO. IS "SPECIFIC EXTINCTION COEFFICIENT(E)". Very nice OLH. very nice.

Ok, forget it. It's over. That's what everyone would say.

Btw, in cause if you don't understand, Specific extinction coefficient is E1%. Not E. E is molar extinction coefficient. Just saying. Blame it on myself for being an indecisive freak who can't decide to use E1% or E.

Hais, oh well. I guess there'll be always a module which is not so favourable. Last sem there was 2. This sem there's only 1. I should be grateful.

Now, I shall emo in my room. Though it won't change anything, but at least it makes me feel better than trying to mug my heart and soul out and then turns out that I can't do any question.

Not that NOT mugging will help me do any question. But better than mugging and can't do any question.

But of course I'll mug. Just not now.

On the brighter side, there's only one paper left. And then I'll be flooded with techtalk, laserquest, trial camp and what nots. Hohoho, GG to me.

Hais, really can only say GG to me.

Kay, nuff' of rantin'.

I was looking at the birds flying around today and wondering if they are siblings or friends. How odd.

Oh, just nice. 7 days later and it's my driving test. If I pass, I will really go buy a rayban wayfarer :D

Big, black wings,

Ok,

I shouldn't be blogging now, but I figured that I haven't been updating so I should post something up.

Here's a picture of a cat,

Credits to: stratjara

Bye, see you next time.

Nah, just kidding.

A nice picture to start off this post.

  Credits to: augenweide

This is how i feel now. Walking on some endless road. 

Been rather stressed out cause of CTs. Yea yea, I know, it's the CTs. But CT alone is some 10%-20%. If I do badly for this, I will feel so demoralized. ): Some people don't really find the need to mug as though it's the finals, but I kinda learnt my lesson that I have to do well for CT to do well for the sem. I could have breezed through for the past 3 semester, but not for this sem. 

GOSH, and I shouldn't be typing a blog post at this crucial moment. But I just want to take a little break from my usual mugging. 

Random thought: Seeing all my friends who are in JC taking prom pics makes me feel like having prom. Too bad, I never had a prom. I wonder how I'll look in prom. Shorter under those long flowy dresses? Maybe.

Can't wait to fast forward to end of this week. At least A HUGE LOAD off my mind. Though another is coming right up after CTs, which is my long awaited driving test. I just want to pass it so badly! x.x 

I know that my grammer/vocab/language sucks to the max. Please don't blame me. That's why I put nice pictures to compensate(hope it works x.x).

I want to start reading books again, but I don't have the time to. Reading books is like a commitment. I can't just start and leave it alone. 

Ok, a break from words,

Credits to: turnerstokens

As you can tell, I'm famished. 

Ok, anyway, can't wait for Christmas to come. Happens every year, nothing special actually. But, I still can't wait for Christmas to come.

BUT, presents are actually getting lesser and lesser by the year. LOL. Ok, I shouldn't be thinking about that.

3 wishes for Christmas as usual. (:

And the last one is 1000000 more wishes! :D

Ok, mum is screaming for me to eat. Great, cause I'm super hungry. 

BYE for now, wish me luck for mbc. (:

And I say hey,

Credits to: YourForgiveness

Feeling so demoralised by the INAC past year papers.

My maths is really darn bad. I can't do a single calculation question and IDK why.

I've been putting in so much effort to not sleep in class so that I can catch every single word the lecturer says and not miss out in any point. It helps, but it doesn't help in maths.

And the worst part? The lecturer don't even want to answer our queries on the past year papers. At least teach me how to do so that I know how to to what.

Gosh. I hope I would be able to do more maths question tmr. They are all asking for the same thing and I just hope that I am able to understand and know how to do. ):

Hais, sad sad post.

I am not afraid to keep on living,

Credits to: ZoeWieZo

Sunday was alright I guess.

Maybe because CT is just round the corners, it just makes me feel nervous. ): Lots of stuff are coming again. ):

Looking forward to Christmas! :D YAY! But my Christmas holidays is flooded with stuffs. I forsee that I'll be super duper tired. ): I just want a good break. ):

Hais. Nvm, feeling grumpy. Shall go and do something else. BYEEYEYEYEYE.

When you look me in the eyes,

Credits to: dolcevitaa

HELLO,

It's finally Saturday, but that would mark the end of the slack week also. Moreover, next next week is going to be CT week. ): Come on, I gotta mug my brains out.

Seeing the teachers go through the past year CT papers made CT seem so easy, I mean really? Multiple choices followed by fill in the blanks? Well, CT is worth 10-15% anyway.

But that makes me so complacent. I'm like, it's ok, I still have 2 more weeks to study, so I can read my notes, write the important points, do the papers later. GOSH. I really hate that I'm doing that.

I'm glad I've started on the papers. I don't like to do things halfway. Once I started it, I will finish it. :D That's great isn't it? hahahha.

My uncle was like saying, " You're studying something you're interested in right?" And i reluctantly nodded my head. I know no matter what my answer is, he just want to know that I'm studying something I'm interested in because he's talking about the screwed up Singapore education.

Well, I guess I'm a little interested. It's really interesting to see how meticulous God is when He created all of us. So unexplainable. Sometimes, science may seem so superior, much sophisticated than anything else. But actually, it's so pathetically insignificant. Whether there is science or not, everything has been made, everything has been done. Science discover, science don't create something out of nothing. If you think discovering is awesome, I think creating it and hiding it and letting people discover is even more awesome.

Just a little rant. It's just amazing to hear that my doctor uncle who has aced all his papers saying that studies is incomparable to moral. Which is of course, 100% true.

Ok, enough of this rant. December is passing so quickly. I didn't realize I'm already halfway through 10 days of December. I like to see months in weeks, or 10days. Cause that makes the months go faster.

I just hope I'll have a better Sunday, cause Sundays are always good.

In the middle of September,

Credits to: BenHeine

Oh gosh,

Super heavy rain. But the rain is nice when I'm sitting at home with my air con on and snuggled up to my blanket and reading a book or something. Sadly, I'm not doing that. ):

But the rain is really heavy. I think this is just the beginning for December. Better bring my umbrella out more often!

I wonder how long will this rain last. Hmmmm..